Journal Entry

My Core Beliefs

A key ingredient I’ve overlooked lately, is the fact that the universe is neutral. Like anxiety being a new state for you, rolling with/within my emotions- validating, embracing, acknowledging, feeling them is new to me. I’ve been “vacationing” in this new wondrous and foreign land of emotions. Embracing this world of emotions to the point that I’ve “gone native” (assimilated/become complacent/adjusted). So while I’ve vacationed in/and practiced feeling my emotions and analyzing how the effect my actions, my results, my reality- I’ve forgotten that the universe is neutral and operates off of cause and effect. The universe responds to my actions. The universe doesn’t care about my co-dependency, the milk I spilt at age 3, how many graduate programs I’ve failed to complete, the universe is simply going to respond to my efforts or lack of effort. As Marianne Williamson put it, “if the sun is shining and I step out into the sun, the sun will shine on me. If Hitler stepped out into the sun, the sun will shine on Hitler. The universe is neutral.” furthermore by this law, if I decide to stay in the house because I believe I don’t deserve fresh air and sunlight, I will not receive fresh air and sunlight. The universe didn’t make that choice, I made that choice. I have to get out of the mindset of fixing my/purifying/debating/fearing if I deserve change, transformation, happiness, success and go back into the mindset and actions of making it happen- in other words, receiving! And of course, it goes without saying… thoughts/believes lead to emotions, emotions lead to actions, and our actions are the fuel which ignites and cause and effects! I simply realize it isn’t the receiving I need to work on but the core believes.